Sunday, May 6, 2012



This is in the hopper!  Looks simple AND delicious!   

The Journey to Good Health - Clean Eating Day 1

Day 1 of restoring my body to good health by eating clean began, by following the principles outlined in the book "The Eat Clean Diet".  I made my coffee, poured hot water over my oatmeal and covered it with a plate, and then put eggs onto boil.  While I waited I poured my first glass of water and drank it while the delicious aroma of coffee permeated throughout the kitchen.  That wasn't so hard!  As I added almonds, cinnamon and sliced bananas to my oatmeal, I pushed aside the inner voice asking for a packet of splenda.  I had to do so again when pouring my coffee. I told myself, this is good coffee, from Old Mill Bakery in Ellicott City and it is delicious without the cream and splenda.  Ok, so it is delicious, albeit a bit bitter; black coffee will take some getting used to, after all I have been drinking coffee with cream and sugar my entire life.  I can do this!  I suppose I could buy stevia, but something in me, just wants to remove the need for sugar all together.  If I can get through the first few days, I should be fine!

As I ate my breakfast, I reinforced the thought in my mind that food was fuel, and everything I was putting in my body was going to give it everything it needed to function perfectly without poisons to drag me down, or cause me to want to eat more crap.  The banana gave the oatmeal just the right sweetness, and the almonds gave it a nice crunch.  This is fabulous!  I can't wait to try it with sweet berries or crushed pineapple!   So far I think the hardest part of this is that this is too much.  I would normally eat oatmeal with fruit and be done with it, but I still have 4 hardboiled egg whites to eat!  Yikes!  I now understand what they were talking about in the book where you need to eat MORE of the right things to lose weight.  I am looking forward to vibrant good health, energy, and the future where I'll meet my ideal weight, naturally without a fad diet, pills, or starvation.

Happy Clean Eating!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

"Life's a Journey, Not a Destination"

Have you ever felt like the roadrunner, running and trying as hard as you can to get ahead and reach your goals, but still the metaphorical anvil falls from the sky and lands on your head? That analogy is how I have felt lately.  After losing a friend to suicide, one obstacle after another has presented itself, and I am left feeling very vulnerable and mentally exhausted.  Life can sometimes smack you around, and I keep reminding myself that “the obstacle is the path”, and that through life’s trials, I am made stronger.  But sometimes it is hard to not feel helpless and trapped in the drudgery of the constant hamster wheel, while each day it gets harder and harder to make your way.  

I consider myself a very resilient person, and I have overcome far worse situations than I am facing (mostly financial in nature), so I have faith that I’ll overcome this, but my problem is I have trouble not crumbling under the weight of it all, wearing the smile on my face day in and day out while inside I’m weeping, desperate to change my path, keep thinking positive, reprogramming every day, trying not to crumble under the weight of it all.  Was this how my friend felt when he solved his problems in such a horrifically tragic way?  I get the pressure, the frustration and the feeling tired, but I’m no quitter, and frankly I think that is the most selfish of acts, to leave behind people mourning you, and solving the problems you’ve left behind.  No disrespect meant, just my opinion.  A friend of mine said it best “it’s the final f you”.   So, how do you cope when things seem insurmountable?   

Michael Jordan once said “Obstacles don't have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don't turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it”.  It makes sense, yet I must throw in an ounce of sarcasm and say I suppose I haven’t racked my brain enough to figure out how to get blood from a turnip.    

I sincerely hope that a day comes when I am in a better place, where I can make someone's life better.   Nothing brings me greater joy than helping others; but alas, I am merely a worker bee, and surviving like the majority of Americans.  I will lay this burden down, and count my blessings, my family, true friends, a career that is going in the right direction when many are out of work and a beautiful home when many have lost theirs.  Add to that, I can walk, see, sing, and countless other things that we take for granted every day. 

Live, love and laugh my friends!

Saturday, March 3, 2012

I have just fallen in love with RuPaul. She's fabulous, and encourages love for all, but that has to start with "love for self". Her frequently coined phrase is highlighted on my dream board "And remember, to love yourself, because if you can't love yourself, how in the hell are you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an amen in here?"

I am reading her book "Working It! RuPauls Guide to Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Style" because I have felt like I am trapped in this fuggly duckling stage of my life. Hard to explain, but I feel like queen frumpy. I've put on weight, am not happy with my appearance, and that shows, and reflects in my "style". I have a great job, a man I love, and my son with me, I should be the happiest queen in the world. So, I purchased this book, because I remember what a transformation I went through when I lived with my friends Corkey and Eric (aka Erica Meadows). They helped me find my "inner Diva", and rebuild after my very unhappy marriage; I need that again. It all starts with "attitude" and "love for self".

In her book, there's a section on RuPaul's friendships and how she had to remove "toxic relationships", and this made me realize that I am not in a rut, I am in a transformation stage of my life, and it's time to forge ahead and move on, not time to wallow and feel sorry for myself!

"My attitude toward friendship has remained the same. I will support and encourage you with all the love in my heart, but if its not reciprocal, I gotta go. When the envy, and negativity of others start to undermine your confidence, you have to find comfort in other places. If your friends are bitter about your success to the extent that they act out, don't expect them to change. They aren't evolved enough to understand that opportunity creates more opportunity. Move on. You'll make new friends who will be drawn to your frequency, and you to theirs. You cannot thrive in toxic relationships. This is an unfortunate fact of life,and the sooner you recognize the tactics of the threatened ego, the faster you'll be able to sidestep its emotional land mines."

I've read this so many different ways, but it remains consistent and true. Surround yourself with those that lift you up, not tear you down. And that will be my absolute path going forward. :-) I feel a small evolution of change going on inside of me! I am almost inspired to exercise. HA HA HA HA ;-) I'M GETTING THERE... BABY STEPS BABY STEPS!